Friday, July 22, 2011

How He Loves Us

7:08 PM 2 Comments
Every time I chat with my friends, we always talk about our trials and how God saved, rescued and helped us deal with the things that we're going through. We talk about our plans, dreams, relationships, struggles, realizations and just everything about Him. It's really funny how each of us comfort each other with "let's just pray for it", "i'm praying for you", "all things are possible",  "He can do anything" and "God knows best" statements; funny because I just realized that that's just how we end every conversation. I shared my story and received those reminders just recently; and a while ago, was my turn to say those words to comfort a friend. 

When life gets difficult and we get frazzled,
staying close to our Christian friends will help us to get through.

I am thankful that He blessed and surrounded me with people who doesn't only believes in Him but also strongly believes that He is the only way. I think it's important for us to be reminded that nobody and nothing can solve our problems or heal our pain without His will for that thing to happen. It's important to keep in mind that our clever plans worked because He made it worked.

Today, I am reminded about His great love. If I can trust an ordinary person to love me, to not hurt me, to think of only good things for me and to be there for me when I need them, why can't I do that for the One who created me, died for me and sees everything that's going on in my present and will happen in my future?

He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware
of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are
and how great your affections are for me.

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these
regrets when I think about the way

He loves us

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Why I Blog

8:48 AM 1 Comments
Before I finally decided to make this space a Christian blog, I used to write random stuffs just to keep this thing alive so I can continuously get offers for a paid post. I wrote and got paid to make reviews for products, services and events. However, I noticed that my posts are becoming more about my experiences and opinions as a believer and so I decided that I should stop blogging for money.

This blog has helped me get through a lot of stages in my faith; writing about my journey helped me evaluate my growth as a Christian. Whenever I feel like giving up, losing hope and struggling with my grasp, I look back and read some of my posts.

"Bring back the fire in my heart, Lord.
Remind me how to let go and trust You."

"We had so much fun that day, Lord. You lifted me up with the angels. You made me forget about the materialistic world and showed me the greater joy that can only be achieved through Your grace."

Those are some of the prayers that I say whenever I visit my previous entries of which some I find strange and unfamiliar, some makes me feel envious of the writer's faith and some makes me laugh about how little her faith is. Maybe this is because I write to give myself a lecture, to remind myself, to do self-talk and to talk to Him.

I can't make an entry whenever I plan to write. I am not a good writer and I know that most of the words in this blog are not mine. Those words just came out at that moment; I nod and reflect while I write because I am also learning from my own posts. If an entry sounds like a prayer, that's just me praying. If a post sounds like as if I am talking to somebody who already knows what's going on, that's just me talking to Him.

An example of an unplanned entry is this particular post that you are reading. I am being reminded to look back on those days when I cried out for mercy and He rescued me, days of which I have things that worries me but I still danced and worshipped Him.

Why do I blog? I guess it's because this is one of His ways of talking to me, one of His ways of reaching out to His daughter who loves to write and be online.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Seeing The Person Inside

2:31 PM 1 Comments
At times when words fail me,
I pray for You to bless their hearts
with ears and eyes like Yours,
so they can hear and see what I meant
with compassion.

At times when I start to build a wall,
curl up in my shell and thicken my mask,
I pray for You to enlighten my heart;
Bless mine with ears and eyes like Yours,
so I wouldn't misinterpret their words.

Cleanse my heart, for I know that it is on parade whenever I speak.
Cleanse my heart and may the words I speak reflect understanding,
patience, compassion and Your grace.

"The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding,
will guard your hearts and minds."

Friday, July 8, 2011

Intentions of the Heart

5:02 PM 4 Comments
As much as possible, I try to see the goodness in people. I remember my mom saying, "Before you criticize a person, find at least one thing that you can compliment about them." I try my best to understand a person's feelings, experiences, their personality and sometimes I picture my self to be in their shoes before I react negatively about whatever "bad thing", in my own opinion, that they said or did.

On the other hand, I was reminded by somebody not to overanalyze things because sometimes, people say and do things because of the most obvious crystal clear reasons that I sometimes rule out because it's just too obvious that it can't and shouldn't be the reason. Sometimes people just say and do things because they want to at that very moment. Maybe it's wrong to do that or maybe not.

Maybe they were wrong and I was right. I don't know, what I know is that in 1 Corinthians 4:5 we are reminded not to condemn or accuse others. It says, “Judge nothing before the time, until the Lord comes, who will both bring to light the hidden things of darkness and reveal the counsels of the hearts”

I believe the Lord said that in the end it's still our motives for doing things that matters, maybe you did the right thing but you had a bad intention or you did the "bad thing" with good reasons. He also said that we should pray and discern for things before we do something about it. Pray that He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and that He may expose the intentions of other people. 

It takes a lot of courage to let go and a lot of self-control so we can be mindful of our words and actions. Proverbs 4:23 says, “Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life”. Monitor your self on how you respond to difficult situations, hurtful words and actions so you can determine what takes root there.

Sometimes, the one pointing the accusing finger turns out to be the guilty one. Sometimes, we think we are the righteous one and we feel the need to correct others; but sometimes in the end it will turn out that we also need a lecture about how we do the correcting.

and so I pray that may the Lord bless me...
with humility to understand and forgive others,
to be quiet so I can listen;
with wisdom to know what to say when I have to speak
or when to say nothing and just let go;
with courage to walk out from things that will 
cause bitterness in my life
and to remove the things that will act like 
weeds and thorns in my heart