Monday, July 13, 2009

I Can't Feel His Presence

6:10 PM 9 Comments
Have you ever experienced being discouraged to talk to God just because You can't feel His presence anymore?

I had experienced that! There are days when I would talk to Him and instantly I can feel His presence. I feel good, satisfied, and sometimes overwhelmed by His presence. I also love talking to God through my Bible, like I would pray and He would reply through it. It felt like as if I am chatting with Him because amazingly the Bible verse would directly talk to me. These experiences gave me a lot of encouragement to be closer to God. It had made me felt that I am in the right track and that I had made Him happy. However, there are also times when no matter how I submit myself, concentrate and be still, I just can't feel Him anymore and that would made me discouraged. Of course, I felt bad because I was discouraged but at the same time it had made me wonder why I can't feel Him anymore. I would still talk to Him but I would always question Him and well sometimes feel bad because He seems to be distant.

Last month, God had blessed me to join a retreat and I didn't expected that He would answer my long time question from that event. I had learned that talking to God doesn't always have to make us feel good. Sometimes, God would take away that overwhelming feeling whenever we communicate with Him because sometimes we just pray because of that feeling. That thought had made me reflect and question my intention of talking to God. Do I pray because I want to be with Him or do I just pray because it feels good to talk to Him?

I thank God for that retreat and for teaching me another lesson that can help me with my journey. Now I say, "Father, it's okay. You don't have to let me feel that You are there. I believe that You are there and I know that You will never abandon me."

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Your Strong Arms, My GOD, Gives Me Stength to Welcome the Rain

3:30 PM 3 Comments

Strong Arm

My child I knew you before the world began
I was there everytime you put your name on the sand
But lately I know you've been through quite a storm
My child I've been there, since the day you were born

Oh, and I rule the wind. Yes and I calm the sea
And the sun won't go down until I say that it can leave
Just as sure as my Word I stand here right by your side
And if you're just too weak to go on
Remember child...I'm your strong arm

Now people will wonder, and they'll stand amazed
They say you're a miracle and I will be praised
And even though your pain has been too hard to bear
Just know that I am with you, there's no need to despair

This song was shared by a friend of mine as a suggestion for our duet on July 19, 2009 as a part of our presentation for the community. I was also looking for songs that I could carry to sing that time, songs that are easy to sing and at the same time speaks on what I truly felt. I was really down last week and found Bring the Rain. Even though somehow I can relate to it, apart of me knows that I don't and can't feel the song deeply...well, guess what? God truly knows how to comfort me. He knows the right words to say whenever I am not okay. He knows what song is perfect for what I am going through.

He has always been my strong arm but maybe I was too down to remember that. Thank you Lord for Your great love and for all the miracles that You've shown me. Thank You for reminding me that You're just there and that You will never abandon me. Thank You for restoring my strength so that I could welcome the rain that You will bless me.

Bring the Rain

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Your Grace is Sufficient for Me

2:21 PM 4 Comments
Lately I've been in a lot of ups and downs in terms of my emotions in dealing with the trials that we are going through right now. Sometimes there are days when I will be filled with hopes and strength to face the day and lifting my future to Him but there are also days when all I want to do is just breakdown and find a solution for everything in an instant. I know it won't help me if I will force to solve everything on my own and try to take the work in dealing things from God. Doing that will never help me in anyway, afterall, He knows what's the best for me.

I would like to thank everybody for praying for us and for my situation. It really helps when you have people who can lift you up everytime when you feel weak and drained to keep on moving. God is really amazing to save me from myself.

He said, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Cor 12:9

Therefore I will boast about my weaknesses for by the time I had learned to acknowledge it, God can work on me. I thank you Lord for everything that you have done for me and for the people you sent to comfort me.

I hope you will never get tired on praying for me and, again, thank you very much. ^_^