2009 is coming and I just wish I can slow down the time. I don't want to leave 2008 because I am afraid to face the coming year. My application for the immigration is still pending and I only have less than a year to make things done. Problems...problems..sigh
"let go and let God. let go and let GOD!"
I have to constantly remind my self to do that. I just have to trust Him but being a weak human being I just can't avoid not to think of how will God solve everything. In Him nothing's impossible and I have to keep that in mind. I get really depress, sad and scared when I think about our problems but I believe He will never leave me alone, abandoned. Day by day and every hour of those days I get more and more curious about how God's going to fix things. Am I disturbing Him by doing so? Am I causing Him to slow down? I guess so. ='(
I had cried secretly for a couple of days and got tired of crying. Then, I begged for Him to take all my worries and to make me strong. The next day, I feel no pain anymore. I stopped worrying. I know He will answer us. I know He will. He will. He will. He will.
It's just that...I am really getting stubborn, eager and curious about how He will do it.
Oh God, I am sorry if I am bothering You so much. You had taught me how to trust You. Now, please teach me how to be patient.
Jesus, King of mercy. I trust in You.