Thursday, December 11, 2008
Not long ago,alright I can't remember how long ago it was, I had attended a seminar which I can't really remember what it was all about but I remember the speaker had asked us how many minutes or hours do we spend in praying. He told us to raise our hands if we belong to the group that he will mention. He mentioned 1 hour, 30 minutes, 15 minutes and a minute. I noticed that there were only a few of us who raised in the "1 hour" group.
I raised my hand that time not because I pray for an hour. I raised because it felt like I was praying for an hour. ^_^ I don't really keep track the time but I might had prayed that long because of the format that was being taught to me to follow. The format is praise God, thank Him, say your sorry then your petitions. My prayer was more like a homework for me to do. It was something that I really don't feel like doing that is why it felt like it was very tiring to do. But my mom would constantly remind me to pray and she would really get mad if I won't and I really don't want to make my mom angry, so I follow her. ^_^
When Jesus changed my heart, praying became an easy thing to do. I still follow the format but not when I pray alone. What amaze me is that you know that you are kneeling or sitting there to pray, you have Him in your heart and mind but then you can't find any words to say.
When Jesus changed me, my heart is constantly in praying mode. I can pray while I am in the train, in the bus, while walking, cooking, taking a bath...anywhere, anytime! I love to pray. I love to pray. I love taking to God about nonsense things. I talk to Him about anything and everything. I don't think I have to be ashamed and to limit my stories to my Father.
Looking back to those days when I just knew who Him and not accept Him fully, I really thought that people who prays anywhere are weird. I thought it was a very holy thing to do. I thought it is not possible for an ordinary person to do. ^_^
I bet that there are a lot of people in the streets, in the train, in the bus or in the mall who would also think that I am weird when I tell them that I am praying while I am standing, walking or sitting there with them. Pray, God, Jesus and Church are some of the words that can paint a really funny face to some people.
The reason that I am sharing this is not to boast about how long do I pray. *_* I would just like to share my reflection towards the reaction of my friend when I said "I pray" when she asked me what do I do at home. It was an awkward moment but I understand her. I know I will react the same way she reacted when someone will tell me the same thing 8 years ago.
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